Planning to go to the Temple

WAHOOOOOOO!!!! So I am so grateful for today. I will be going to the temple for my very first time. Last Thursday I was supposed to go but I woke up with strep throat. When I woke up I knew it wasn't good. I then went in denial. I immediately started talking to Heavenly Father, begging Him to make me all better super fast. I wanted to go to the temple so bad that day! well, I wasn't getting better. So then I remembered Jacob (because of a devotional I had listened to the previous day). How when Jacob needed light in the ship he asked God to make light. However, God told Jacob that he needed to take action and basically do all he could do with what the Lord had already provided him with first. I decided to take action. I first gargled salt water ( I never do that). While doing so I said "okay God please make this make me all better." Then I took medicine to reduce swelling. My throat still hurt. (by this point im realizing that I enjoy instant solution and I wasn't getting that). Then it was time for work. I went but my boss sent me home, thankfully, because I still didn't know I was contagious. On the way home my friend Bradley and I were talking about me not feeling well. I told him that I was trying to find someone who could give me a blessing. My dad was at work and I didn't have a home teacher at this point. Bradley replied, asking if I would mind him giving me a blessing. I totally was okay with it. He and Jordan were going to get dressed real fast and meet me at my house. My mom made a doctors appointment though so I wouldn't be home for long. I wanted a blessing before getting tested for strep because I honestly believed that it would make it so that I was cured. Timing was hard though. Before I was able to meet up with Bradley and Jordan I had to go into the doctors office. While waiting for the Doctor, Bradley and Jordan came walking in. They were all dressed up in church clothes. Wow. It hit me then about how much love we all have for each other. They had taken time out of their busy school day to give me a blessing in a place full of sickness.
They gave me the blessing and I felt at peace. When the doctor came in I thought she would say I didn't have strep...I was wrong. It was positive. I was then sad. although when the doctor gave Bradley my prescription we laughed because I am totally old enough to have my own piece of paper.
At first I thought this was Satan trying to stop me from going. I had already pushed back the date and rescheduled before so I didn't want to do it again. I texted my parents telling them I was still going. After talking with them and Lorene I realized that it would be selfish of me to go and get the temple workers sick. We cancelled the appointment. I cried. I honestly was devastated. I couldn't understand why something so good could get messed up. (even though that happens ALL the time). Since then I have become very grateful for that bump in the road. 1. I was able to receive a blessing and realize how great of friends I have. 2. I got closer to my parents 3. I had even more of a desire to go. 3. People were able to serve me. 4. My bishop will now be able to go (which I had been praying for, funny how God answered that prayer).  5. Since I wasn't able to go, Bradley asked if I wanted to go to the temple when I got better just to hangout. Bradley, Jordan and I went on Saturday. I made them dinner and then we went. While there I got a Spanish Book of Mormon! It was a blessing. 6. I was able to go to Timeout for Women with Lorene. While there I was able to see more fully and become strengthened. I also ran into my Grandma Coley!

I have learned that God has a plan for ME. I don't know the little details of this plan. I am learning to do all I can do but accept the direction that the Lord wants to take me. When things don't work out its for my benefit if im living faithfully. One thing doesn't work out so that something greater can :) I know this. I am so grateful to be able to go today. The Lord loves me and I love him.